Well, here it is. My first entry of the new year, 2005. I debated with myself whether or not I should do this now,being it an entry of such importance.
I just got home yesterday from Goose Bay. It was fun. I actually didn't want to leave. I suceeded in surprising three of my friends. It was pretty exciting at the time. Goose Bay hasn't changed a bit, but I guess my outlook on it has. It holds so many memories for me and my friends and all the things I associate "family" with. I'll miss it, and I'll miss the people and most of all my friends.
Christmas was full of surprises and it was wonderful, but it is nothing like what it used to be. I am sad to see all my childhood fantasies being sucked and dragged out of it as I grow up. The magic of it and the crazed excitement of what can be in those brightly colored wrapped packages. Gone.
The past year has been full and demanding for me. Its been crowded with the ups and downs relative to most teenage girls my age, that only I can see and feel and the rest of the world see only a body, face, or smile..hiding only what I know. I've accomplished alot and lost alot and gained knowledge of everything in life itself. I can feel the changes around me. Family getting further away. Friends not being what they used to be anymore. Changes, that soon will be forgotten as I forget they were ever there.
I have greatly excelled in my riding this year and I hope the next will be as satisfying. I've come along way since being with Fran and now Mrs.Laf and Lorraine. Things have changed and I like to think for the better, but of course you can never be sure. My horse is great. He has officially turned six yesterday.
Academically. Other then Math everything is just fine. I am happy with my marks here and I think I've done well considering everything.
Socially. I'm ok. I think I'll just leave it at that.
My resolutions include:
Eating less.
Loving more.
Helping grampa shut the door.
Trying harder.
Laughing lots.
Getting rid of all my spots.
Staying silent.
Being polite.
Doing better things at night.
Accepting changes,
as they come.
and knowing what I can learn from.
haha..yes, that did start out as a mistake, but I decided to carry it on. Genius? yes. hehehe.
I should go. xox
Happy New Year!!
Liz.